Fade





I try to breathe

Memories overtaking me

I try to face them but

The thought is too

Much to conceive



I only know that I can change

Everything else just stays the same

So now I step out of the darkness

That my life became 'cause



I just needed someone to talk to 

You were just too busy with yourself

You were never there for me to

Express how I felt

I just stuffed it down

Now I'm older and I feel like

I could let some of this anger fade

But it seems the surface

I am scratching

Is the bed that I have made



So where were you

When all this I was going through

You never took the time to ask me 

Just what you could do



Fade



I just need this to be all right

I can't feel this another night



I can't take this I come unglued

I might breakdown in front of you

Necessary to medicate

I'm not sleeping, can't stay awake



Can't see through this

Too much pressure

Drowning in this



Too much pressure

If you need me I'll be here

Half unconscious to escape my fear



My head hurts this sh*t isn't getting me high

My chest is so tight I think I am going to die

My stomach's in knots and the room starts to spin

As I wait for this valium to slowly kick in