There and back





I've just returned from a long round trip

Many tales I have to tell.

Now I don't get high,

so you think I'm not hip

But I've seen the gates of Hell.

How can a youth rise above all the shit

When surrounded by such lousy influence?

He clutched his pipe, took his last hit,

And nobody's heard from him since.



In this world of confusion

Drugs were my solution

The pain was breaking my heart.

I shut out my reality

Nearing my fatality,

found myself falling apart.



Miserable, horrible,

life such an obstacle

Making my own matters worse

to end up dead in a dark alleyway

Or to ride in the back of a hearse

To die for a cause like pride or respect.

Or honor would make you quite worthy

A pityful waste to live in the sewer

And die before you reach thirty.



Cop a bag as a crutch

copping out lose so much

Hangin' out dippin' butts

Lost my mind smoking dust

There and back



Back in the days I was living a lie

To cool to show my feelings, too cool to cry

Lost in a fog and unsure of my friends

With a one way ticket headed straight for the end

As the flames burnt the rope and my spirit cut loose

I found myself wrapped in an emotional noose

I said to myself continue no longer

Today I face the world with a mind that is stronger



Spent my time gettin' nice

I crapped out of rolling dice

Look at me and my scars

Now I live pure and hard

There and back